日有相思，夜有所梦

原以为自己已经彻底的下定决心要忘记他了

但还是做不到

家里电脑里的背景是他

电话的screen saver又是他

都不舍得换去别的

在这星期里

其实都还好好的

也没什么会想起他

但昨晚

不知怎么了

无端端的又会梦见他

梦见去他家找他

还有他跟我说……

不想讲了

最近的部落格写的多数都是关于他

难道要忘记一个认真的那么难吗？

想彻底的忘记

但还是做不到

虽说

最近追我的人也不少

但我还是无法接受他们对我的付出

我这样做到底是对还是错？

很矛盾~

Try to forget bout him

No people love me le

I'm alone..

Lonely life of myself..

Is time to forget all bout it..

Since now,

start for a new life..

My life is bright!!!

Not to waste time into something that wont have any result..

I'm trying to let myself forget bout u..

Hope I can do it^^

Gambateh!!!

New life start..

Dream End

The second time LOVE a person so much..
But all the time when I so love a person
The person won’t treat me good
And couple with me not with their heart
Even how they say they love me
All also lie.
I hate all the playboys

I spend a lot of FIRST time memories with him
Such as the:
First time
Go countdown end of the year with him
(I ask for my dad for long time only I can go out that day)
First time
Watched firecrackers with bf
First time
Saw many drug addict taking drug
First time
Saw the people after taking drug de manner
First time
Let all cousins know me couple with him
First time
So lucky he live above my grandma house
(That when I small always will go de place)
And first time this…
First time that…

And I hope
You are always there for me
When things tend to go wrong
It’s that faith have in me
That makes our love strong
Haiz…

He already have 2 weeks no find me le
I don’t know what he thinking about
During the time he no reply any message to me and did’t answer my phone
I always find people to chat with me
And when every time chat about him
My tears also cant control de drop down
I get hurt le
Is very hurt
A friend suddenly ask me,
Did I think before why I so love him?
Then I answer,
Cause he treat me very good
And give many freedom that I want
And dun know why when he angry I will very scared
Then he told me that’s not love
Me getting a wrong feeling to this boy
And say me is only think the boy is my bro
But after that I say I very scare he will leave from me
And I will cry for him any time that I feel he was sad or get hurt
Then my fren ask me to call the boy out and tell him about it
And say if the boy still leave me
I can just slap the boy and forget him
Lol
I tried to ask him out before but he don’t reply my msg and don’t answer my phone
How can I ask him out?
Haiz…

Slap?
Say easy la
But I think I no the seniority to slap the boy bah…

Forget?
Not everyone also can forget a person so easily
I tried before
But I can’t

Till now
I also getting the same hurt
Did’t I still need to waste my time on this kind of person?
I hate myself why will be full of sentiment to this kind of boy
I hate myself falling love in you
And I will remember how you treat me
I won’t forget as long as I live

I need to forget u as fast as possible
And who can teach me how to forget a person easily and wont get hurt anymore?

Pic of me when wearing School Uniform^^

11/01/2010

such as a happy day

a day that i feel HAPPY^^

at school

can change class le

from science class change to account class

nth special at all

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12/01/2010

normally go school in the morning

take new text books le

got 16 books leh

so many and so heavy

then after school

still got stay back

luckily

James let me put my text books in his house

then go for rumah sukan

after that raining

cant go James house take back my text books

lol

then leave my text books in his house

ask him bring back for me when got that subject de period lo

hehe

so good

thx ya^^

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13/01/2010

normal day

nothing to write about that day

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14/01/2010

go school in the morning also

decided to go for tuisyen at Wawasan Tuisyen Centre after school

just tried and see good or not

after recess time

Mervyn want ponteng

ask me help him to take care of his bag

lol

duno y wan ask me @.@

after a few period

got a prefect come to our class and find him

lol

so scared bout it

the bag is inside Shan de drawer

scared the prefect came and checked

finally she gone

phew=.="

then

after school

go eat

finish eat about 2pm le

go for tuisyen

cause the tuisyen started at 2pm-5pm

2pm-3pm

science

i hate science

althought i got pay attention to the teacher

but still cant understand whjat the teacher was teaching

make me wanna sleep d

3pm-4pm

maths

i feel awake

cause i like math so much

and the teacher was funny also

4pm-5pm

add-maths

same teacher as science

lol

dont know why

i dont like the teacher

i cant pay any attention ti the teacher

just feel want to sleep

and he teach very fast
i cant follow what he teach

after tuisyen go Star bookshop read comic

then go home

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15/01/2010

go school

wait for finish school

then go 5F class for Interact club meeting

lol

my head-Khen Foi keep asking me dont late for it

and hor

during the meeting hor

he came and asked me to copied things that no ppl will copy de things for him

>.

wuwu..

after meeting

he accompany me walk back home

and walk back to school himself

my birthday already pass about 3 weeks le

but still have present leh

haha

anyway

thx Khen Foi

thx for the present and accompany me back home

you're a good head also (sometimes)

below is my present:

so cute^^

END OF A SCHOOL WEEKS

最近

最近都为很多事而烦恼

学校的事
家里的事
感情的事
友情的事

全都弄到我很烦

谁能来开导我啊？

开学以来的日子

4/1/2010
开学第一天就下雨
真是的
校方竟然把 form 3, 4, 5的学生逼在一间只能装下几十人的礼堂里
礼堂的地下都被学生们湿湿的鞋子给踏得很肮胀
猪脑的校长还要我们坐下去
她X的~
还到form 5的学生得站在礼堂外听校长的废话
真惨
替他们感到伤心
还有就是
礼堂明明新安装了三个大音响
坐在礼堂里的我们
尽然连国歌在响了也听不到
都不懂什么烂音响来的
后来
form 3 & 5的学生都陆续跟着老师的安排回班了
剩下我们这些form 4的学生
原以为我们能够自己想着自己想进的班
没想到校方早就帮我肯安排好了
好进不进
偏偏就进到我最不想进的班-科学班
科学班虽然只是sub science但对我来说
压力真的蛮大的
因为我的科学一向来就不好
何况还要读Physics 和Chemistry
会读傻我咧
到时考试不及格我就好笑咯

5/1/2010
要换班
校方都丢给一个老师去处理
那老师又说不给换
说三说四的
很讨厌咧

6/1/2010
叫爸爸到学校帮我争取换班的机会
他就嫌麻烦
然后就不来
还没开学前就跟他说好了要进account class的
他也赞成
现在叫他来帮我争取就嫌麻烦
恨死他

7/1/2010
照样到办公室去找老师去申请换班
还是换不到
但下课过后
就有几个人拿着老师签名的纸条来我们班说他们换到了
很不公平咧
早不说可以找人代替
现在要找都找不到了
咳~
然后老师给我们个测试
说明天就能知道谁换到班谁换不到班
很好
我们就等结果咯

8/1/2010
找老师
老师尽然跟我们说
要等到下个星期才可以安排到哦
咳~
不守信用的老师
很讨厌咯
这什么烂丑学校来的
要换班就直接给个换班的borang我们就好了啊
还要什么测试不测试的
又要等
等了又等
等了又等
就只会给假希望我们这些学生
到时换不到班
我决定不读了
当然家人是不会赞成的
那我只好天天逃学咯
不然还能怎样
好好的开学心情
就被那老师搞扎了
讨厌
还想今年当个乖学生
不要再叛逆了
但还是不能

*我叛逆
不是我想的
而是家人跟学校害的
要换班或转学
家人就嫌麻烦
在学校
那老师又不会处理事情

*SMKBBSP 烂学校

31/12 countdown

Happy New Year!!!
31/12/09
1pm woke up
then straight go call my dad ask him can go countdown anot
then he answer "can"
YEAH!!!
so happy^^

then mum say wan go cut hair
then me go do treatment lo..
2 hour o
neck so tired..
lol

after that 5.30pm ask uncle bring me go Times Square
6pm reach le
then straight go find dear lo
dear go 'sok k' leh..
sok k le den blur blur le
not only blur blur lo
still faint leh
walk oso cant walk properly
long time only can wake up
wake le then still sok again
haiz..
duno what so fun
juz make himself blur blur
do le what oso duno
then dear's fren want go eat
we go to 10th floor
they bought things n eat
me n dear walk walk awhile first
then went back
they almost finnish le
yean sms me ask me where am i
i say at 10th floor
she n yin come up find me
lol
yin them cant find me
then i go find them lo
leave dear n his fren
chat with yean them awhile
dear call me le ask where am i
yean accompany me go find him
find le him
yean go low yat find pierre lo
then me keep accompany dear walk walk
dear still blur blur de..
his face so funny
hehe

so fast
then till 10.30pm le
go outside T.S. main door
sit there duno do wat
wait ppl?
no
juz sit for fun
after that all ppl gone
then we only walk to Sg. Wang
walk till half saw dear frenz
then play together lo
play play play..
walk walk walk..
many ppl keep spraying
make my hair so.......
haiz
juz do treatment then let them make till.........
duno how say
@#$%^&*

walk le 1 round back to Sg. Wang (behind)
saw my cousin
lol
dear and my cousin knows each other de leh
so "fish"
then i take a spray n spray to my cousin hair..
haha
so funny
then walk back to T.S.
erm..under bridge
sit at the road site
sienz lo
but nvm lo
who call me wan accompany dear leh
haiz
after that walk to T.S.
near 7eleven there
hug hug dear n see fire cracker
so sweet o
End of 2009

finish
dear's fren want back le
then dear also want back le
me go where?
go find yean lo..
dear accompany me go find
but till half road i tell dear no need accompany me le
coz yean n boyz together
scared dear saw so many boyz den jealous lo..
then me go find them myself
find yean
saw pierre them..
find le them then they say want back le
=.=
then left me n yean
we go Pavilion find james n his frenz lo
go there saw Brandon, Alan, Winson, n kenneth
lol
go there more high
can dance^^
5 minutes like tiz
dad call me le
want back home le
T.T
juz high le abit then want back le
so sad..
End of countdown

when going to T.S. take de pic..

so funny*.*

stupid yukiko =P

pig yukiko xD
yeah ^.^v

sweet yukiko (say for fun oli)